On the other hand, yesterday night was a freakish night for me. My eyes are startingto give up on me [maybe due to over reading since I read till 9am these past week or two], there are times that it gets teary w/o any reason or when I look at any other direction, it whould hurt. I rested a bit and laid on my bed. Since the lights were on [I didn't put it off coz I just wanted to rest my eyes a bit], I placed a blanket on my eyes to cover it with complete darkness. As I opened my eyes and stared at the complete darkness, an image of my room flashed before me in a blue filtter effect [it was like there wasn't a blanket covered on my face]. then thinking it was just my imagination, I just stared at the image as it pictured me in 3rd person view that I was leaving the room and went downstairs. After reaching the first floor, I saw the TV was placed from the south part of the floor [near the kitchen] to the northern part [at the sala] and a white bulb was turned on.

Without any real valid reason [I dunno I just felt like my instincts wanted me to], I checked to see if the image [more like a vision] I saw was real. And to my surprised, it realy was [Just to clear things, the TV was at the kitchen at the time I arrived home]. The TV was moved near my uncles PC at the sala and a white bulb was on at that time. At first I thought it was just pure coincidence, but then again, something like that might not have been.

With what happened last night, My thougts drifted to the conclusion that atlantians was able to use 100% of their brain a long time ago [Now only 20% or so can be used by an avarage human being]. Having the fact that they can use their brain to it’s full potential, It led to their great success and their great fall. Those who sruvived realized that and placed a limit to the human brain and removed some of their memories to avoid repeating the tragedy [Explains why the crystal skulls that were created a few thousand years before human kind had perfect shapes and angles w/o the use of modern tools].

In todays modern language, the so called 80% that is dormant can produce abnormal effects called PSI. Many are aware of it and have undergone trainings on how to awaken the dormant part, some for lust of power, some just to experiment on it. But if the anceints placed a limit to the human brain, wouldn’t it be for a good cause? I have a theory that if removed or too much practice is made, It stresses the brain or organ that is effected, shortening the individuals lifespan or causing even death.

Although I myself would like to experiment on what had happened last night and see onto which extent I can reach. I would not want to shorten my lifespan or kill myself since I still have a son to raise

PS:
Yesterday was freyah and mine’s monthsary, and we talked the whole night which made her really happy [Yeah it's somthing so trivial so bohoo! shoot me] :”> and just a while ago she also called me :”> I really wanna go home, see my family and be by her side in these times of trials.

Since last week, bonding times have been often. Although it is hard for my body to keep up, I know my limit and know when to pass turns. From last monday, where we needed to transffer from Black Pearl to c24 then walk all the way to paseo cuz we were drunk and needed to dance our asses off just to shake the drunkness. The day where we went to naga to jam with yanyan, some TGP friends of theirs, hannah and her family. Went to a disco with everyone and danced with gay’s [laugh all you want =P]. Got home as early as 5am [early in the morning I mean XD].

Then to this week, we celebrated bell’s birthday. Went there, ate ate fritz great cooking, drank our asses off with Grand Matador and Tequilla. Few hours after we washed ourselves with a case of RedHorse while singing on a ktv bar just right next to where bell lives. Again went home early [in the morning], and slept like a log.

And finally last night, we went to c24 to drink a litre of dark rum and 2 bottles of RedHorse. But it doesn’t end there. Tommorow’s gona be another drinking session, wenesday’s scheduled for archies birthday and friday’s gonna be our accuaintance party at a beach. Call these days of terror, but are you willing to trade these days for anything else?

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Just yesterday I got my glasses btw, and I look like a fucking geek! =(

Just yesterday night, we went out to drink. We drank and drank and had fun, but deep inside I was crying. Deep inside I had a problem so deep that I wasn’t able confide to anyone. My family and wife’s at Iligan and only family I have here is my aunt who I’m living with right now, but I can’t seem to open up everything to her since I’m too shy to talk about it. I have a close cousin that lived with us since I was in 5th grade till 3rd year high but she’s too busy with her college life that It’s hard to even contact her.

So yesterday, I barfed and cried my problems out. You may laugh and make fun of the situation saying I was drunk or something. but actually I just had no output to my family problems that we’re affecting my studies. Seen the coke advertisement where the girl was fetched by her father coz her parents weren’t together anymore for some reason? It’s one of my greatest fear. I’m afraid something would come to the point where I’d be only able to play my son by fetching him. Why? He grew up on his Lolo and Lola’s care [wife's side], I really never was there to support him.

My mind’s really confused right now on what to do. Jake yesterday worsened my fear, he told me bout how hard it would be to get my son out of my in-law’s hands. It’s like you really wanna be there for your son but can’t actually do anything cause if you don’t finish your studies, it would be useless. I’m even confused on what to do first, study or go home and take care of my own family.